I was really delighted to have a post
accepted on the Thesis
Whisperer website, because it’s a site that offers a lot of
thoughtful, helpful analysis of the process of doing research and writing a PhD
dissertation/thesis.
So this post on
giving up the PhD was originally published there in early November.
Do check that fantastic website out.
When to give up the PhD
You’ve been plugging away at your PhD for a
while now, maybe a year, perhaps a couple of years. But you don’t seem to be
making that much progress. The prospect of getting up in the morning to go to
the university or to continue work on a chapter doesn’t thrill you the way it
did during the first few months of your studies. But you force yourself to do
it, because you have to, right? Or maybe you can’t force yourself and instead
you spend the day surfing the internet, chatting with friends, occasionally
looking at an academic article, and when evening comes, you feel depressed and
guilty.
Time to give up the PhD?
No, you think. You can’t give up on your
doctoral studies. What would people say? How would you feel about yourself?
Would your supervisors be disappointed? What kind of job would you be able to
get if you can’t finish your PhD?
Those are all natural concerns, but there
are some situations where you’re actually better off letting go of the PhD and
moving on with your life.
If you are doing the PhD for the “wrong”
reasons and you aren’t enjoying it or getting much out of it, then it’s time to
let go. There are many possible wrong reasons. I’ve talked to students who decided
they wanted a PhD because they didn’t have anything else going on in their
lives. Some have actually said, “I don’t have a spouse or children, and all my
friends are married with kids. I needed something, too.” If you want to have a
partner and/or children, concentrate your efforts on that, and don’t use your
thesis as a substitute. If you don’t want those things but you are lonely
and/or you feel you need something equally important in your life, carefully
consider whether a PhD is actually that meaningful to you. It might be that
you’d be happier if you made some new friends or found a new hobby or changed
jobs.
Other students have said that they couldn’t
get a job, so they decided to continue with higher education instead. Think
about whether a PhD will in fact help you get a job you want. If it isn’t
leading you in the direction you want to go in and/or if it is just piling you
with debt, then you might be wasting time. Similarly, if you are doing it
because you think having “Dr” in front of your name will get you a job and/or
other benefits, that isn’t a strong reason to continue.
If you are no longer interested in your
topic and you’ve lost your passion, it might be time to give up, but you need
to ask yourself a few questions first. Most researchers go through phases where
they are more or less excited about their work. Indeed, all workers have tasks
to do that are less enjoyable than others. Have you temporarily lost your
academic mojo? If so, what can you do about it? For some people, taking a short
break (whether an actual holiday or a “staycation”) can be enough to reignite
their love for their subject. Sometimes reading books on another topic
altogether can help. Also, other activities – teaching, volunteering, going for
a walk, spending time with friends – generally can help with research-related
stress, and this in turn can help re-focus you. It may even be that moving on
to a different chapter or working on a different part of your research is
enough to help. Maybe approaching your topic from a new angle is all you need.
Talk to your supervisors about this.
But if you’ve been feeling disengaged from
your work for a long period of time and nothing you try makes you care about it
again, it is probably time to consider leaving it behind. If the thought of
continuing with your research strikes you as drudgery that you just can’t face,
that is telling you something, and you should listen to your feelings.
An issue that can come up, however, as I
mentioned above, is that some doctoral students worry that they would be ashamed
if they scrap their thesis and their studies, and that others will be
disappointed in them. While it is true that
people generally feel better if they accomplish what they set out to and
while it is also often the case that we are very aware of others’ expectations
and desires for us, none of this constitutes a reason to make yourself continue
on a path that is bringing you little joy or satisfaction. Also, your
supervisors won’t want to waste time chasing you up to do work you promised but
never delivered, and they, your friends, and your relatives would much rather
you be happy than not.
It is a hard, but brave, decision to make,
and yes, it may involve disappointing yourself and/or others. There may be
other implications as well (having to pay back student loans, needing to move,
looking for a new job, a loss of prestige, and so on). But these all pale in
comparison when you consider the fact that this is your only life, and you
don’t want to waste it by pressuring yourself to do things that aren’t right
for you.
People claim that “quitters never win”, but
actually, for some, quitting a PhD is the best choice they can make.